Christmas's have never been about presents for me. I do admit a few gifts stand out clearly in my head. Like the year I got Dream Builders, sort of a Lego set for girls. I was so happy. When I look back on Christmas pasts, I remember more of a feeling I had. Not something you can really describe. If I had to I would use these words:
Warm
Colorful
Food
Love
Snow
Pine
Smiles
Joy
That's what I really remember. That feeling. That magic. If you do it right and forget about the money, the shopping, and the presents, you can have that too. Otherwise its just another holiday that brings stress and commotion to the world that leads to mothers fighting over the last tickle me Elmo. No. That's not what Christmas is about. Christ was born on this day, and we celebrate that love. If you are not a religious person you can still celebrate Christmas as a time to love and gather your family, share food and laughter. Make it special. On that note, I wanted to write a Christmas list to Santa. I haven't done it for years but it seemed to work when I used to do it. Here's hoping!
Dear Santa,
I know that I'm a 28 year old grown woman, but I thought I would try this out anyway. You've always been so great at getting me the things I have wanted on my list. I'm hoping you can help me out this year like you have in years past. Here goes...
1. I want my husband to know how much i truly love him. I may not be able to show him that all the time but I'm hoping to strengthen our bond, passion, and understanding for one another. Ive never been good at expressing my feelings. Just ask my parents. Any argument we ever had usually consisted of yelling, crying, slamming doors, and swearing. I could never verbally get out what I wanted to say. I'm that way in my marriage and I'm working on it. I want to be able to tell him everyday that I love him and have conversations about our feelings that don't end in me walking away. I don't walk away because I'm mad but simply that I cannot form my feelings into words. They just don't want to come out of my mouth right. I give up. Ive always been better at writing than speaking. Hoping to change that :)
2. A baby. Since my husband and I are unable to conceive I was thinking that you could maybe just leave a check made out to Dr. Knock-Me-Up in my stocking for about 5 grand. We really want to have a biological child together and unfortunately its a huge out of pocket expense. All my life all I have ever wanted was to be a mom. I'm so lucky to have my baby Talula. But I want more..... I want the love that Terry and I share to come together and create a child. I want this so bad it hurts. I get jealous of pregnant people. How lame is that?
3. A kitty named Valor. He needs a mommy and I think I'm up for the job.
4. For my daughter to grow up enjoying Christmas the way I always have. I never want her to be the kind of kid that gets blindsided by "want" every Christmas. I want her to feel love and happiness and create good memories for her. She deserves that.
5. Health. For me, for my family and friends. Be healthy and don't take life for granted.
6. To be fulfilled and happy everyday. To reach out and be the person i need to be. To explore and take adventures, challenge myself and make someones day a little better.
Thank you Santa for reading my list. I hope that it isn't too much. These are big things I'm asking for.
Blessings,
Sweet Mommy
PS- If these things are too hard to come by I could always use anything camera related, music related, candle, incense, or yummy smell related, sparkly, or bettering myself related. I also like adventures. Surprise me :)
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