If I think about it, it isn't hart to remember
Remember our closeness, our friendship
It may have meant more to me than it did to you
If so, you fooled me
A decade can seem like a lifetime
Growing up, learning, changing
Babies, weddings, tears
How do you throw that away?
A click of a mouse
A dial tone
Silence
Deleted.
I can't shake it
That nauseating heat at the middle of my chest
A tugging on all sides
Months and months and months and months
Still hurts
Still makes me cry
I have nightmares about you
I have dreams about you
No matter how hard I try to forget you like you have forgotten me
you
are
always
there
I can pretend it doesn't bother me to see your number in my phone
That I don't cringe and feel heartbroken when I see your picture
I want to hate you! I really do!
Because you took something from me that meant the world to me
Our friendship
It meant the world to me
You were my family
Everyone struggles.
We all do
I know you do too
I wanted to be there for you
Now I have to try and forget about you??
To erase vital parts of the last ten years and expect to feel better?
I never thought in a million years, that one day you would not be a part of my life
We were close. So close.
If you think about it, it isn't hard to remember.
Know that when you leave,
By blood and by me, you walk like a thief,
By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave.
By blood and by me, you walk like a thief,
By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave.
